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And I have proof.  On a whim, my sweetie took me to Philly for a cheesesteak...all because I had never had one! We decided that we were going to go and come back. Like making a normal food run. We just went to Philly to get it!

This is something I would have NEVER done on my own.  I'm so blessed to have him in my life.

Life exists outside of the four walls...physically and mentally of your own limitations held in your mind, the computer and your smartphone! Explore the world...see the vision...know it for yourself.

Be Free...

Wow...it's been about eight (8) weeks since I've last written in my blog.  Doesn't even seem like eight weeks have gone by that fast. Well it has. Two more days and it's August! 2010 is flying by.

Nothing has drastically changed in my world.  I'm still with my sweetie. Love him to pieces. 

Work is work. But I'm blessed and thankful to have a job.  Too many people out here are trying to rob Peter to pay Paul and really don't have a Peter to rob.

The girls are good. Growing up and learning to make their way in life. 

My moms book is selling well. Please check one of my previous blog posts for the information on how to purchase it. 

Santana is calming down these days.  I can take him for a walk and he's not pulling me, but really walking beside me. I really need to get that dog properly trained.  He suffers from separation anxiety. Seriously. He's very clingy to me.  

I un-deactivated my Facebook. Now that's interesting. lol But I only go on once in awhile. I still find FB to be a done nothing website.  I do like playing the Texas Hold'em and the Family Feud on there, but for the most part, FB doesn't have any meaning for me. I've started tweeting again.  But not with the same passion I had once before.  I've said this once before I like Twitter much better than I do FB.  And I still find that Twitter is better social networking website than FB.  But these folks are allowing FB to be the spaceship from WALL-E.  It's making their minds fat with do nothingness.  I'm finding that life really does exist outside. 

My writing has stalled. I really hate to admit that. But it has. It's not that I have writer's block, I don't have the energy to want to write. I think about writing everyday, but I never put my fingers to the keyboard or pen to paper.  It just seems like a chore in my mind.  I'm hoping that writing in my blog today will help me get back on track. I feel like I'm wasting so much time, but not writing at least a page a day! DAMN not even a page today, yesterday, three days ago, two weeks ago or even these past eight weeks. I'm such a lush at the moment. But I promised myself I'd work on this.  Right now I'm failing me.  Me and only me. I need to recommit to myself. That's the only way this is going to work.  So given that notion that life exists outside, made I need a netbook and work outside to get this writing done. (Just another excuse...to purchase a netbook lol)

Remember - life is better with the good company you want to keep.

Be Free...

This is the life. At this moment in time, I'm sitting here typing this blog from my laptop at my boo's house. Me and the girls have been here since yesterday.  We packed an overnight bag and came over to have fun with the boo and his son. This is how I've always imagined a family should be. He fixed dinner, we ate as a family, then he and I washed the dishes!!!!  You just don't know how much I dislike washing dishes, but washing dishes with him took on a whole new meaning. lol I know it sound "crazy", but this is what I've always dreamed having a family should be like...should be like....I LOVE IT!

I love it and...

I LOVE HIM....

Love to love....life is sooooooo much better with company!

Be Free....

Hey Family and Friends! :-) 

If you didn't know by now (cuz I tell everyone) my mommy is an author.  Her next book has just been released - Secrets Unraveled. This is the last installment of a trilogy.  I have listed all three of her books in order. The first two can be purchased at any bookstore and online...the last book is not in stores yet, but can purchased on Amazon.com. 

 *Added note...if you are an aspiring writer/author, support another published author...if you are a Greek support another Greek...if you are a Delta...support your soror. 

 Matter of fact...lol...just support her cuz she's my mom!!!!!! 

 Amazon Author Page:  J.J. Michael - http://www.amazon.com/J-J-Michael/e/B001K8AJFC/ref=ntt_athr_dp_pel_1

1.  Life Is Never As It Seems - http://www.amazon.com/Life-Never-Seems-Black-Coral/dp/1585711535/ref=ntt_at_ep_dpt_1

 2.  It's Not Over Yet - http://www.amazon.com/Its-Not-Over-J-J-Michael/dp/1585712450/ref=ntt_at_ep_dpt_2

 3.  Secrets Unraveled - http://www.amazon.com/Secrets-Unraveled-J-Michael/dp/0615359019/ref=ntt_at_ep_dpt_3

Here is the link to her non-fiction book.

1.  Path to Truth: A Spiritual Guide to Higher Consciousness - http://www.amazon.com/Path-Truth-Spiritual-Higher-Conciousness/dp/1893652580/ref=pd_sim_b_2

Follow her on Twitter: http://twitter.com/JJMichael

Read her powerful and inspirational blog:  http://www.jjmichaelblog.blogspot.com/

FYI - 10% of my moms proceeds from the sale of her books goes to the Hydrocephalus Association -http://www.hydroassoc.org and the Neurofibromatosis Inc. http://www.nfinc.org, in memory of my brother Antoine Aparicio (1984-2001) who suffered with each ailment. 

Hmmmm, I'm at a point in my life where the happiness is so plentiful that I feel no lack or negativity. 

So many great things have materialized in 2010 that the sorrow I felt as 2010 called I didn't think this could happen to me.

I'm in love with a wonderful man. Who I pray, one day will be my husband. 

I FINALLY crossed the burning sands and now a member of Zeta Phi Beta Sorority, Inc. A dream that has been deferred for 12+ or so years.  I have bonded with my line sisters as if I've known them forever. 

Looking forward to getting my screenplays optioned. And having my mom's publishing firm, publish my novels. 

My daughters are growing strong and healthy. The family unit and bond we share is terrific.  My mom is happy and is moving forward with all her goals...making them into a reality. 

I continue to grow spiritually.  I continue to see the positive in every step I make. 

I am enjoying being 39. The last year of the 30s. I have experienced so much in the last 10 years. I have learned much.  I am looking forward to the next chapter in my life. 

Love to love...life is better with good company.

Be Free! 

Wow! I'm just so happy right about now. The new relationship has been working out well. He and I get along wonderfully. He's a breath of fresh air compared to the staleness I've been experiencing these last years. 

As the days come and go, I'm thrilled that he and I have found our way to one another. Words really can not describe the elation he brings to my world. 

I will keep you all updated as things progress.

Be Free....

My life has been flipped upside down just in the last few weeks. 

I can't believe this wonderful man that I've been getting to know so personally has been in my life for at least three years and we never decided to hook up.  

I ask myself why now? What made now a good time for him to finally tell me he liked me and has been liking me for awhile.  I'm just amazed.

I think I may know why.

It's because I wasn't ready.  I hadn't really figured out what I wanted until he came into my life.  I was still thinking that my last situation was going to re-materialize into what I wanted. But I couldn't see the forest through the trees of how that "situation" compares to this mature relationship. 

I completely understand how closed my mind was compared to how open it has been in this relationship.  I see all my past mistakes, all my wishes, all my could have beens, all my why did I do thats, all my why didn't I do this, challenge after challenge, misstep after misstep...and it all lead to me being the right person attracting the right man at the right time. I am thrilled to have this one man in my life. 

The one man that truly cares for me. The one man that has been fulfilling my every whim and dream before I can even think of it.  The man I'm getting to know...the man I'm going to love...the man that's going to love me back without hesitation or reservation.  The man I've seen everyday, except for one day, since we decided to hook up. 

My world was once...cloudy and grey. The dark clouds hung over my space for many a day.  It felt like any moment the rain was going to pour. As if the sun would never been seen again. The highlights that once shone was just a reflection of the real sunshine that was soon to come.  Now my days are warm sunny clear blue skies with white puffy fluffy clouds of love, hope, humor and joy..... 

I'm feeling the happiness of it all.... 

Be Free....

I hate when this happens...I wrote a really good blog post.  I touched one button and now the damn thing is gone! UGH!!!!!

Anyway....I will try my best to RECREATE my thoughts.  It won't even feel as sweet as when I first wrote it....only cuz right now I'm really ticked about what happened to it! lol SHIT!

I wrote a previous blog post about diggin' deep.  It was about changing my thoughts and how I saw my dating experiences. I was thinking of dating and relationships in a negative way. Only because things never seemed to go my way...or what I thought I wanted I could never get with the guys that I was choosing to date.  I decided I needed to change my thoughts to more positive ones and see what happens from there.

Well, things have changed.  A man I knew in one of my social circles was diggin' on me.  I knew we had a mutual attraction by the way we'd flirt sometimes, but we could never seem to get it together. He eventually came out and told me that he has liked me for a while. Nevertheless and to make a long story short - cuz now I'm pressed for time - we are dating.  He's nothing like I thought he was from what I could tell from our previous interactions.  I'm going with the flow...it's a great feeling....to finally meet someone that has been floating around in my head. 

My thoughts are my reality...I've changed my thoughts for the better and something so much better has entered into my life. 

Be Free....

I have two projects in the works I'm trying to complete.

It's SOMEWHAT of a MENTAL struggle trying to get them done around family, work, and my fitness schedule.

By the time I want to get to it I'm mentally drained. I figure if I want to get these things done, I need to just make the time.  However and whenever I can do it.  

Anyway, so I was doing some research last night and I discovered that my computer has speech recognition software on it...this was after I was thinking of buying the Dragon Naturally Speaking software.  My other laptop has DNS installed. Come to find out the Vista operating system already has that installed. LOL So last night I was "typing" up a storm by speaking.  I need to figure out how I can get it to work for my blog, email, Twitter, or anything else I do on my computer.  I need to get better with the commands. lol  The use of the dictation software will help me tremendously with one of my projects. So far, I found the software to be pretty accurate when dictating.  I'm pretty happy about that. 

In addition, I find it pretty wild that a couple of guys I use to date and one that says he likes me are trying to get with me. lol SAY WHAT?! Um...how bout...I'm really not interested.  I haven't even designed my man yet. HAHAHAHAHA.....

Remember to think positive thoughts. 

Love to love....

Be Free....

I need to decide what kind of man I want to enter into my life. I have to be specific. There are certain things I want. I think in the past I've been too general, and with these thoughts I've been getting general kind of men. 

I'll date one man and he doesn't have all the qualities I want, date another and he's void of other things I want. 

I'm going to work on this.  I need to change the way I've been thinking about relationships and what I want for me...

I need to create this man mentally.  Eventually the physical manifestation will come. But first I need to mentally dig deep and write out what this man is like.  There is a certain vision I have.  Then I need to think about it often. Just like I do with my other goals. 

It's time I redirect my thoughts. I've been thinking the wrong thoughts and it's been keeping me stuck.  

If I keep thinking that dating is hard; it will be hard. The more I think the wrong thoughts, the more despair I feel about this situation.  

So at the moment in time, I'm changing my thoughts.  No more focusing on the wrong thoughts. 

My thoughts are my reality.  I'm creating the relationship I want. 

I will build it. He will come. 

Be Free....

"My strength does not negate my delicateness."

Quote by ZETAZEN

April 11, 2010

I'm just full of thoughts today! lol 

Be Free...

"LIFE IS BETTER WITH LOVE"

Quote by ZETAZEN 

April 11, 2010

Be Free...

I'm so happy Spring is here.  I feel the warmth in the air, the sun on my face and the pep in my step. 

Things are getting done these days.  Ever since I let FB go, I've been making things happen. Right now I'm in the process of partnering with another great writer on a few projects. He's writing a book at the moment.  While his is non-fiction, mine is fiction. (I'm writing a novel.)  I've been sticking to my goal of writing at least a 1000 words a day.  That's a lot.  But I have the time to do it because I've freed myself from other time consuming entities. 

I am going to self-publish my book.  More than likely it will be an e-book.  E-books are the wave of the future. I am working diligently to get this done.  Since I am the author AND the publisher...I've had to act as the  publisher and put the manuscript on a deadline.  Since I'm also the author, I've had to stick to my goals of getting this done.  I promised myself I'd do this and I'm going to get it done!

If I can't fulfill a promise to myself how and why do I hold them for others? 

Be Free...

The light at the end of the tunnel has finally come through.  Whoo Hoo!!!!

LMAO! 

Clarity. Today's angel card word was HEALING. 

I get it. lol :-) 

Be Free....... ALL THE BEST! 

Normally, I'd write my reviews on Amazon.com, however today I wanted to review EA Active and EA Active More Workouts. 

I have owned EA Active since May 2009 when it first hit the shelves.  I used it for only one workout. lol At the time I thought I was serious about working out, but I think I was just into having the latest workout fad.  I have a bunch of Wii workout games. Was I using them? Well no. 

Fast forward.  February 21, 2010.

I'm going to Jamaica for my 40th birthday.  And there is NO WAY I'm going to step on the white sands of Jamaica looking unfit! lol 

I was a member of LA Fitness, but for some reason, I couldn't get with the gym anymore. I had signed up back in December with the intentions of going on a regular schedule.  This didn't work. UGH! So I cancelled the membership a couple of weeks ago. 

So I decided to purchase a second Wii for my bedroom.  And this has been the BEST decision I've made. I have used the Wii since I purchased it...and one week later I started using EA Active.  

I started the 30 day challenge. I am half way complete.  Of the 20 workouts, I've finished 11.  I'm on target to finish by the end of March.  I liked the game so much I decided to purchase their newest game. EA Active More Workouts.  I was going wait until I finished the 30 day challenge to start the six week challenge but I started that on March 11th.

So far, I've lost 1 inch in my waist and about four pounds! The resistance band that comes with the game is some crap, so I use my own...and my arms feel like BRICKS! My legs sting from the lunges and squats.  My endurance is getting better with the running...I love it! The EA Active More Workouts has the ab work and additional games centered around beach activities.

I have until January 2011 and I believe I can stick with method of exercise.  I would recommend EA Active and EA Active More Workouts to anyone that is looking for a cost efficient method of getting shape.  

Be Free....

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